and i wonder about the empty promises we made...

i'm FUSTRATED. yes. thats what it is.
i'm just too TIRED. no matter how hard i try... how much effort i put in... i still find myself falling. straining and aching more by the minute. i hate it. hate myself for trying too hard to let go and yet not being able to. hate myself for still holding on...

went to find itien today... we didn't have much time to talk but i guess it doesn't matter. being able to see her gives me comfort=) and talking amid the chatter of other people... i felt at peace... really at ease... even though it was for just a short while... i guess its enough. i dun think i deserved anything more... on my way back ran into shirley... hahas. chatted a while abt school... JIAYOUS k! =) hahs. yuppps. and i realised again. shldn't i start to do smth with my life? haiz. physics test is on wed. i should at least put in some effort i suppose...


false face must hide what false heart doth know... i finally get it now....

cried myself to sleep
at 8:51 PM

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