" And just like that, I starterd to think, it's just not enough."
hmmms. woke up thinking about alot of things ( rather i didn't know what all it meant to me in the first place...) i've got my priorities wrong perhaps (never got it right anws) i'm screwing up everything... my blocks... my life... my friends... i dunno how to balance it all. i somehow regret what i did last year. if only i had worked hard then maybe i wouldn't have taken my results so forgranted. but then again would i have enjoyed myself so much... treasured my friends so much if it had not been the way it was? the fun we had... the things we shared?

maybe mel's right. i'm another "bu kan ji mo person" haha. wells. cos when i'm ji mo i think about damn alot of random troublesome stuff. should be a great day today... considering i'm meeting my bestest friends... and i'm totally looking forward to it. it feels like years since i saw them. although i just saw amy after blocks which wasn't that long ago... (or maybe it is)... OG outing is postponed. perhaps maybe i can at least pass physics luh this time.

hmmms. back to the stuff i was thinking about... haha. shan't really go into details about it luh. but its more about perceptions. i have no idea but i think i'm really damn confused by these kinda stuff. everything thats happening arnd me... the truth and dare games being played... always so confiusing... (what is actually true like seriously seriously true... things keep changing... views and all...) i rmbr rose in JOY LUCK saying that she has told a different story to each person and that " each version was true." or smth like that " at least at the moment that " she told it luh... so wells. this again reminded me of smth else... sometime last year when ms jacob asked abt JC life and how things will change (as she continued on about Brad Pitt...) and asked the class about certain things? i rmbr having quite a different view but it all seems to be changing again... like how i view such stuff. and much as i don't want it to change it certainly has... ah wells. just as well. i never expected my viewpoint to be a definite one anws =) haha =)

cried myself to sleep
at 2:35 PM

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