deafening silence... painful emptiness... miserable numbers...


when something trips you and you see no way of getting up... what would you do? choose to stay there in that position or struggle in vain to get up?



okay. i have no idea what i'm crapping about or what exactly i'm thinking about and i'm like seriously trying to make sense out of my disoriented thoughts. arghhh. been upset lately... sorry mel for like telling you everything to get it off me. ah wells. yeah. everything's like not going very smoothly eh... haiz. ah wells. depressing stuff. and i dun see anything to be optimistic about. and yeah. the bench matters. ah. another crappy thing which i shld not elaborate about. the turnout for OH really sucks now. ah. i'm such a failure...
i miss my darlings. argh. my squaddies and bestees! haiz. and V day is tmr... oh and wannie theres a jnr called wan er in my class!!! STJ will be soon and i hope at least i won't screw this one up... (OH is screwed enough)



today was tiring. haha. and despite all that sugar (and calories) from the sweets and choc... i fail to keep awake during all the lessons... and theres V day dinner tmr with my clique!!! (ihope) though some ppl reserves V day for more special purposes eh! haha. but its okay luh!!! haha theres still other times!
its pretty obvious i guess. right now... and will someone tell me what to do???

cried myself to sleep
at 9:13 PM

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