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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

watched 'departure' today...

yuppps. and it made me think alot about death yeah (considering the 45 mins bus ride home i had to myself) and it sruck me (once again) that life can just end so abruptly. i mean thats probably not the point of the whole show... but i rmbr being touched by the 'bath lady' who died... i mean... she went about her whole life sorta 'fulfilled'... ah wells. not the first time i'm told that life is fragile etc... it was just a random afterthought which led me thinking and thinking for the next 45(bus)+5(walk) mins home...

and that made me wanna repeat everything i treasure,every major point in my life and every significant detail again... just so that i can relive it, do my best and make the best out of it, and remeber it as significantly as possible... be it bnco or the more significant anco where we held in pumpingpositions for half an hour at about 3am. or when i kept complaining as i scaled huang shan with my dear friends... the class deco competitions... the plucking mango session... YLTC 08' which i hoped everyday would pass by quickly yet was unwilling to leave at the end of it... nepal where i spent most of my time idling that i forgot what an extraordinary chance and experience i had been given... itc 08 which could have been better... YL 09' -too good to be true yet i miss it(crap this most be the post yl syndrom acting up again)... and yeah. so many things i would like to treasure and cherish yetmany are already lost in my mind's limited capacity... do they count as regrets? maybe... but if i were to count regrets... i'll probably have a list ten times longer than this... yuppps. (fun fact- i cheated in a pri sch exam before) ah wells. i think i'm damn tired... haha. spouting nonsense already...

yes... and so i really need to start working on how to cherish those beside me... its importance ever more significant now... haiz... yeah. another random thought which came about as i was passing by the bus stop at newton mrt where cong and i would take the bus home... argh... i was really really tempted to get down there and walk up the hill to see you! if only i could walk up and see you there!<3

cried myself to sleep
at 11:25 PM